Mummy and Girl Girl Talk~

Dis is specially dedicated t0 my best friend there~ xD
i n0e that she's having pr0blems there~
s0 i guess all i'm saying after dis, she will take it as a less0n and n0 m0re finding reas0ns t0 run away.. hahax~ >dun give up reading< xD

Last night i had a c0nversati0n wif mummy~
and amazingly, last night i can see that mum has really trained me well t0 endure life..
the way she talked t0 me was t0tally different...
b4 this she did share wif me st0ries 0f her w0rking days.. but i've realized that that was juz ammature talk c0z the way she said it was really like talking t0 a kid dat d0esnt understand anything.. but really.. i d0.. i can't say tat if i understand m0re then u d0 but since last night.. it seems that i think i d0.. hahax~

anyway, back t0 last night..
right.. during the c0nversati0n last night i really realized that she's n0 m0re talking t0 girl girl grace~ but t0 s0me1 that she thinks can listen and advise and to be m0re specific, an adult..
i think she's realized that i've gr0wn up and i've experienced enuff..
th0ugh mayb S0ME things i've n0t t0ld her.. tat's c0z i feel th0se are juz mini pr0blems that i can find my way thr0ugh..
dat's h0w i bucked up 2 be s0meb0dy that is go0d in self-m0tivati0n..
mummy has realized that i'm ready t0 g0 0n my 0wn~
there's 0ne 0f G0d's miracul0us signs that 0rdinary ppl like us w0n't realize but when we c0me t0 a deep think 0f it.. it actually juz link..

I'm happy i'm ur friend..
but i'm als0 sad if y0u are facing these pr0blems..
but i'm even m0re sad if y0u're juz sitting there and complain..
the thing is.. y0u're c0mplaining things that y0u SH0ULD have said it 0ut~
c0z they are ur FAMILY~
but instead y0u ch0se friends 0ut 0f families~
0f c0z i'm always there f0r y0u~
i may be like y0ur sec0nd family..
but remember.. if it's n0t c0z 0f her 0r wh0ever it is.. y0u w0uldn't be here..
0r sh0uld i say y0u w0uldn't be here in F6, studying in SMART, kn0wing friends that had changed y0ur life, turned it s0meh0w 360 degrees ar0und, experiencing w0rking wif t0ugh ppl, w0rking y0ur way 0ut 0f hardships in scho0l, turning pr0blems ar0und, learnt wad's the meaning 0f independance, c0ntr0lled y0ur em0ti0ns, getting t0 n0e many types 0f ppl there is, r0und it all up.."challenges in life"..
be happy tat y0u've experienced this b4 u really step 0ut int0 the big w0rld..
think tat mayb she D0es kn0w wad she's d0ing~
wad i n0e is tat G0d is juz d0ing the planning all the way thr0ugh...
n0w.. learn h0w t0 ACCEPT... and Deal wif it..
dun sit d0wn, accept, and complain...
there's n0w way 0ut.. and y0u n0e that y0u y0urself is the key..

last night mummy's c0nversati0n and i had als0 made me learnt a less0n.. alth0ugh m0st 0f the less0n was me t0 mummy. hahhax~~
she had me see tat we have t0 d0 things 0ut 0f 0ur 0wn heart..~
and it's a new less0n f0r me t0 learn and adapt wif..
wad is this less0n ab0ut?
it's ab0ut d0ing things 0ut 0f y0ur heart...
and at the same time.. n0t cheating y0urself.. n0t lying t0 y0urself..
n0 such thing as "i'm d0ing this 2 myself f0r the sake 0f s0me1 i love"
tat's poppyc0ck~
wad's the use d0ing go0d things f0r ppl but lying and cheating y0urself along the way?
wad s0rt 0f guiltiness threat have u put f0r y0urself?
are u ashamed ab0ut it?
i can tell y0u tat G0d is....
y0ur heart has the right t0 make the decisi0n.. d0 it wif y0ur heart~
dun backstabb it.. dun betray it... dun hurt it..~
but instead... think 0f a way and let it all 0ut~
wad i'm trying t0 say is... instead 0f spilling it here where ppl can juz lo0k and c0mment, g0... and c0nsult her y0urself..
y0u said y0u're t0ugh facing these pr0blems..
hiding everything behind y0ur back.. dun wanna sh0w her c0z it'll hurt her feelings..
f0rcing y0urself n0t t0 tell... keeping it all 0ut.. dun want her t0 n0e...
i'm guessing that y0u've d0ne this a milli0n tymes..
and d0es it w0rk?
at last it'll end up back t0 the same 0ld sp0t.. and u'll realize tat y0u're juz spinning ar0und in circles~
n0w.. y n0t try a new step....
something tat we'll make y0u c0me 0ut 0f that circle..
s0mething tat we'll actually s0lve the big 0ne..
and i've n0 right t0 judge it..
but i think y0ur heart d0es..~
and i'm saying it again... dun bluff it.. dun cheat it..
G0d n0e's when y0u're lying.. and i meant n0t external lies.. but lying t0 y0ur heart..
dun be pr0ud tat u've sacrificed l0ts f0r this... but it seems that wad u've sacrificed d0esn't w0rk 0ut right? i'm n0t trying t0 say dun sacrifice..
but dun expect many ppl t0 appreciate wad u've d0ne..~ get use t0 dis situati0ns.. it always c0me and g0.. wad ppl say.. DUN CARE..~
if Y0U n0e wad y0u've d0ne is RIGHT~
s0 be it..~
reveal it all 0ut~
n0 m0re keeping it t0 heart~
n0 m0re lying t0 it..
n0 m0re treating it s0 badly..
u've caged it to0 l0ng den it can imagine..
dun let it drag till u'r gr0wn up~ den it'll juz mess up ur life..
change it n0w..~ ur y0ung and a perfect age t0 learn this up..
juz think... mayb if y0u've c0nfessed y0ur feelings 0r wad shyt y0u've d0ne t0 her.. she'll feel m0re free t0 share t0 y0u m0re things..
she'll realize that y0u REALLY can think..
mayb she juz needs s0meb0dy fr0m the family there t0 listen t0 HER side 0f the pr0blems..
where's the positive side 0f y0ur thinking?? where issit??

i n0e it's easier said then d0ne..
i'm als0 getting adapt t0 dis new less0n..
but i'm telling y0u dis.. dun wait till nex tyme..
d0 it N0W.. instantly.. s0 tat there's n0 m0re regrets in the future..~
n0 m0re waiting here and there~
time is preci0us..
listen.. N0 M0RE REGRETS anym0re... tell tat t0 urself..

and wadever it is tat ppl c0mment..
bad, shyt 0r wadever hell it is... juz let it g0..
patience is the essence t0 life..
dun let it engulf int0 y0ur em0ti0n..
dun let the devil take 0ver y0ur b0dy~
pray everytime 0f the day~
give all y0ur burden t0 G0d~
i've said it.. if Y0U think it's right.. den dun care wad shyt they've said t0 y0u 0r b0ut ur l0ved 0nes..

family.. is important..
it d0esn't mean tat it's br0ken up there's n0 way back~
mayb Y0u can turn this ar0und..
mayb G0d has sent y0u t0 d0 s0..
t0 make y0ur family believe that G0d is there f0r them~
mayb G0d has picked y0u..
tat's y He's been giving u s0 many tests in life..
but first.. y0u have t0 learn h0w 2 accept and g0 wif it..
and then.. y0u're ready..

G0d is great~ He plans 0ut all b4 hand~
He kn0ws wad's g0nna happen b4 we experience it 0urselves..
He kn0ws wad's c0ming f0r us..
He plans 0ur future..
He h0lds the key t0 everything..
But we can't juz sit there and d0 n0thing b0ut it..
y d0 we 0nly ask f0r His help during w0rried times and nerv0us situati0ns..
where's 0ur j0b in it?
d0 y0u want Him t0 d0 everything?
s0rry t0 say, n0thing in life c0mes that easy..
y0u may have G0d.. but plz dun f0rget y0urself..
y0ur faith and wisd0m must be str0ng..
y0ur patience must flare within y0ur heart..
G0d can 0nly guide..
but it's always Y0u tat decide...

remember~ G0d loves y0u~
go0d luck and i'll always be there f0r y0u~