--the Fallen and the Risen--: A few catching up to do

Thursday:

PONTENG SCHO0L day.. xD
a reas0n 0f c0z..
and tat's t0 g0 t0 SEMSAS f0r n0rmal less0ns....
their c0mp is c0ming so0n..
and yet they dun realize it at all!!! =.=|||

received information from the teacher that they are goin Taman Gelora at 2.30pm..
n i was like huh???
so alright fine..
since they wanted to go there s0 much.. g0 ahead then!!
dun sc0ld me when y0u dun have tyme to complete y0ur s0ngs guys!!

anyway, while coaching, received sms from jo..
saying "2moro.. got appointment wif boss"

i said "for wad?"

she said "that complication remember??"

i said "we are s0 dead j0.. losing 0ur j0bs much??"
hahahax~~

0h well.. but it d0esn't really effected me in semsas.. h0hhoho thank go0dness...

in the afternun, made some few calls to cai yi to ask if she wants t0 g0 Taman Gelora to watch SEMSAS.. rather then fetching her there so far.. @@
she said yes.. and den 0kayh den! and le0ng was there to0..

at nite, i can't make it to semsas c0z i was to0 exhausted..
heard fr0m y0ng wei that they did PT there.. @@
my go0dness...
NS style much???? =.=|||

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Friday:

the nex day i was damn frustrated..
the night b4 s0me1 called me and talked f0r 1 and a half h0ur straight..
h0ho.. i haven break rec0rd yet ah~
thanks f0r being there f0r me..

when i fetched mei yee in the m0rning..
she was hesitating to talk to me in the car..
c0z i was TO0 FRIGHTENING t0 be talked to.. l0lxX~~
yerpz.. my mo0d was really really bad..
and yes, seld0m u can see me like this..
s0 tat day i really can't contain it at all...

firstly, it was ab0ut the m0ney c0ncerning miss irene's birthday presents?
it seems tat s0me ppl juz simply buy things with0ut telling ppl clearly wat is it??
but tat's 0kayh since it c0sts 0nly a lil bit per pers0n..
we payed up th0ugh..
but s0me ppl juz refused to..
and n0t 0nle refused to.. but sh0wed a terrible attitude t0wards wat they felt b0ut it..
and i think it's juz plain rude..
where's 0ur t0getherness??
when 1 pers0n is selfish y must every1 f0ll0w him/her t0 be 0ne??
d0es it actually FEEL GO0D t0 be like tat???
dun u feel GUILTY???
where's the teaching 0f GOD??
juz s2pid ppl...
put urself int0 0ther ppl's sh0e..
Y N0T THINK 0F BEING ME...

we went to the ro0m 0f death.. xD
yerpz i've heard many st0ries fr0m my friends.. gahahahx~~
and it seems that all are the same..
s0 definately n0 t0k0k tambah bah.. =)

and it g0es like tat... we went in..
we expressed wad we ARE SUPPOSE to express...
if can we SH0ULD tell the TRUTH...
but yet..
we are definately BIG EN0UGH t0 kn0w that, c0z if we d0, it will bring MUCH M0RE hav0k...
s0 as in LIE t0 settle things d0wn?? hahahx~~ s0 is tat a go0d thing 0r a bad thing??? hmmmmmmmmm =D
n0t really lie th0ugh..
it's juz like d0ing the best we can n0t t0 hurt any party in the same tyme..

but yet...
as we tried harder and harder..
the going juz gets tougher and tougher..
c0z it seems that when we try to cover her..
we were said..... "racist"?
want me t0 say that again?
RACIST
i believe every1 can see tat.. xD

s0 s0rry t0 say.. we were NEVER racist..
s0 let me think wh0 is the child n0w.. hmmmmmm... =D
siapa yg tengah dok tuduh menuduh nih??? hahahx~~
this place is s0 funny!!!
tat's 0kayh.. we ppl always g0t blamed...
and the ppl wh0 blamed us are always the 0nes wh0 never THINK RIGHT....
THEY NEVER TAKE CARE OF US.. WE TAKE CARE 0F 0URSELVES!!!!!

g0t things settled.. and came 0ut..
haiyz... life..
i was s0 stressed up tat day.
i nearly killed mei yee in the car TWICE...
wasn't concentrating on the r0ad..
if i did end up in an accident..
i will n0e wh0 t0 blame.. =)

Can some1 plz replace me as the KEPTES president??
thank you very much if some1 volunteered up here..
y??? is it to0 challenging???
0r will it take up to0 much 0f y0ur time??
0r izzit n01 else can handle the teachers??
plzzz...... i'm half dead here.. i dun wanna end up in the grave at such a y0ung age..
s0meb0dy plz put urself in my sh0es and think..
think 0f wad I WILL ALWAYS BEAR THE BLAMES fr0m the teachers alth0ugh i'm n0t inv0lved wif everything.. juz bc0z i h0ld the f0rm6 name..
blamed by everything f0r my inn0cence 0f d0in n0thing!!!
and i have t0 c0ver every1 saying that it's my fault and a misunderstanding..
where's the humanity..................................
i to0 have h0mew0rk t0 catch.. i to0 have a life t0 catch....
i to0 have h0bbies and interests t0 catch...
s0metimes i never see my dad f0r a wh0le day..
s0metimes i 0nly see my mum in the m0rning...
i din cho0se this way 0f life..
i w0uld give away anything to lead a N0RMAL average life..
where i study f0r my STPM..
instead 0f cracking my head thinking h0w t0 c0ver up f0r all the silly mistakes made by my friends etc...
i always say t0 myself "it's 0kayh... everything is g0nna be 0ver... d0n't give up...!!! live y0ur way thr0ugh!!!"
but it seems tat everytime i settle a problem.. an0ther pr0blem will c0me juz like it's been blown by the wind.. and the surprise is it gets heavier and heavier...!!
it will always make me feel s0 d0wn..
where's the supp0rt that i've asked fr0m my friends..??
if can... plz take my place.... 0r live in my place.. and taste wad i'm tasting n0w.....
see wad i've seen.... d0 wad i've did... experience wad i've feel...
and being surpressed when i start feeling stresss....
the numbers 0f stresses i'm facing n0w is unc0untable....
the ag0ny..

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Friday dat night, mum had an annual dinner in MS garden..
n i'm sup0se t0 be perf0rming..
and i did..
thanks f0r the c0mpliments fr0m every1 there...
juz a simple "richard claydermen and y0u raise me up"
hahahx~~
surprised tat Benny and the gr0up was there.. IMBA~
they perf0rmed to0..
and it was the same perf0rmance they did during the competiti0n in ECM..
we sat 0n the same table.. hahax~~

after the perf0rmance i was s0 sad that i c0uld'nt stay long.. c0z i was late f0r semsas..
and i was the first perf0rmer..
which meant.. i missed the wh0le dinner..
i juz ate 1 piece 0f s0mething fr0m the c0ld dish..
and 0ff i went.. T.T
HUNGRY LAH!!!!!!

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Sunday:

after church, i was to0 tired t0 c0ncentrate in tuiti0n s0 i decided t0 g0 yi-tsiang's h0use early.. @@
church finished late btw.. 11am like dat.. @@
thanks f0r the cake that y0u saved f0r me.. but i f0rget t0 eat the ferrer0 r0cher.. hahax~
then we went t0 tc..
and in the mean tyme..
cai yi was mad at me and yi-tsiang.. l0lxx~
s0rry le.. dun s0 fast siu hei.. xD
s0 cai yi went and fetched kelly fr0m the bus stati0n and straight went tc..

in the car yi-tsiang and i argued t0 call her.. @@
and at last when he called, her ph0ne s0mem0re engaged lah! buang masa saja.. hahax~~
s0 many tymes called engage le..
and den.. at last when dialed ad.. excited.. @@
and thank you f0r n0t replying my message lah wong cai yi!!!! hahahax~~
konon kononya merajuk.. dun wan reply me.. but answer his call.. =.=||||

den when we reached tc..
the rain was still heavy!!
s0rry lah.. really sensitive t0 rain wan.. will sick quite fast if get..
then decided t0 buy umbrella...
tat cheap rm9.90 umbrellla..
i din realize it was tat small.. @@
then b0th 0f us have 2 share..........
nex tyme have t0 have umbrella in car lia0..

when we made 0ur way thr0ugh the car park..
there's unc0untable BIG puddles 0f water... and he was walking damn fast!!!!
i'm d0ing s0 many things at the same tyme:

catching up wif him
seeing where's the umbrella c0z he's h0lding it..
h0lding up my pants...
seeing where i'm g0in
determining which directi0n m i turning..
JUMPING 0ver puddles..
sighing f0r getting my feet wet..
bearing the pain 0n my feet c0z it's full 0f blisters!!!

=.=||||||||||||||||||||
wad a terrible j0urney!!!!!!!

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at nite, i did s0mething h0rrible t0 the semsas ppl..
they really can't play their jig..
and i n0e that we are runnng 0ut 0f tyme..
but it seems that THEY have n0 idea 0f it..

called them to cho0se between legs and hands..
th0se wh0 ch0se hands have t0 h0ld up their instruments straight 90 degrees infr0nt 0f their eyes..
and th0se wh0 ch0se legs have t0 sit like 0n a chair.. but better still.. on mid-air..
all these lasted f0r 3 minutes....
and yes if 0ne 0f them fall.. the pr0cess is repeated..
m0re tidi0us then PT huh??? hahax~~
be m0re stubb0rn nex tyme.. i dun care lia0..
FEDDUP..

b4 1 minute... s0unds like "erghhhhhhhhh........ sssssssssssss....... ahhhhhhhh.."
start c0ming 0ut.. hahax~~
and 0n sec0nd th0ught i th0ught they were crying.. hahax~~

they deserve it..
dun say it's a waste 0f tyme..
u guys asked f0r it..
wad i said.. i will d0..