i've f0und sum1 exactly like me

n n0w i realized h0w i've been a pain t0 my band members..

times dat i've ch0sen studies 0ut fr0m band when i knew dat actually it will juz take me a few h0urs f0r practice and perf0rmance...

times dat i've ch0sen families 0ut fr0m band when i knew dat i will c them everyday but n0t my band c0z it will so0n b 0ver...

times dat i've argued wif my bestest pals in band juz c0z 0f my future which i knew w0uld'nt b dat bright but instead l0st my closest family in my band...
times dat i've n0t attend practices bc0z 0f my pian0 less0ns which i knew i will actually turn 0ut go0d in it, but instead did badly in band c0mpetiti0ns and were n0t blamed up0n c0z i've let my wh0le band d0wn...
times dat i've ch0sen SPM study time instead 0f band camp when i n0e dat i can discipline myself t0 study and concentrate...
times dat i've ch0sen studying al0ne rather then studying t0gether wif my band members when i knew dat gr0up studies w0rk 0ut the best...

dey did n0t make me feel guilty.. i p0ur guiltiness up0n myself...
f0r juz a few things dat i've ign0re had became n0w a bitter mem0ry dat i will ever n0w shall n0t f0rget..
i sh0uld've spent m0re them... c0z n0w i missed dem deadly..

less0n, c0nsidered learnt..

guiltiness-the pois0n that sh0rtens 0nes life..
like it did t0 me...